^That’s where I’m going to be for 5 days and 4 nights. If you’ve noticed, I posted a lot of stuff today. Some are what I made, some are those I got from another website. Why the super posting? I’m going to Bangkok tomorrow, April 5.:D And yes, I’m gonna be in the airport/plane during my birthday, though the trip is only around 3 hours.  Me and my family are staying in Baiyoke Sky Hotel in Bangkok. It seems nice (from pictures) and it’s quite affordable. However, WiFi is expensive there so I don’t think I’ll be able to go tumblr during my stay in Bangkok. Plus, I’ll be seeing the sites!:)) I’ll be back on April 9, so I guess I’ll be back tumblr-ing on the 10th.:D (backpage-ing hell for sure.:|)  Do you want anything from Bangkok?
i just finished watching “Bandslam” (thanks P) and there was a scene there where i thought of you. i remember what you said in the car before about predetermined stuff and whether we have free will and there was a line in the movie where v. hudgens mentioned it. (and yes, the movie has some profound moments! very different from camp rock) the thing is, what you said sounded exactly like what v said in the movie!:)) which makes me wonder, did you watch Bandslam? hahahahaha. random musings at night.:p 

i just finished watching “Bandslam” (thanks P) and there was a scene there where i thought of you. i remember what you said in the car before about predetermined stuff and whether we have free will and there was a line in the movie where v. hudgens mentioned it. (and yes, the movie has some profound moments! very different from camp rock) the thing is, what you said sounded exactly like what v said in the movie!:)) which makes me wonder, did you watch Bandslam? hahahahaha. random musings at night.:p 

(via artpixie) usually, hahaha. i remember my dream from 2 nights ago… it was romantic but semi-disturbing too. hahaha. but it was nice-ish, hahahaha
fuckyeahsubtitles: Through a Glass Darkly (1961) gonedrifting today was not a good day. i had tons of time to think in the trip going home awhile ago (because it was traffic). i first thought about cc, how we didn’t really talk. i know, not a big deal, it really isn’t. but it made me think about myself. why would anyone like me? i mean not even romantically because that seems so far-fetched, even just my personality in itself. i don’t like myself. i was thinking about my self-hatred and how i seem to be “mayabang” and talkative, like when it comes to making “kwento” about cc. i think that other people think of me as shallow because i laugh at the simplest things, i get mad at the simplest things at times, i’m “mababaw” talaga. but i think i’m like that because i don’t like thinking too deeply all the time. when i think too deeply, i see my flaws and i get sad because really, who’d like to be with me? i don’t want to be alone in the future. i heard “seasons of love” on the radio on the way home awhile ago. i remembered my dad, about how he lived his last year on earth. i guess all these just piled up and i felt like crying then and there. today was challenging because it made me question my self-worth, yet again. this is why i don’t like thinking too deeply too much. there are wild beasts everywhere in the silent darkness.